Dear God, and/or Brian,
I understand that everything happens for a reason. I get that. I embellish that factor to justify every casualty and instance of my life. And most often, I struggle to live with the opportunity of not knowing the answer—-but this? This, I really don’t understand. We worked together, he flirted with me. I tried to be as bold and flirted back. He asked me if I was single and I said yes. A simple phone call interupting our conversation kept me from asking back. I thought this uninterested approach would be daring and cause more interest. Instead, it could’ve saved me 6 months of discomfort and uneasiness of not being around him and being around him.
I understood other cases where I was to cross paths and fall for someone. But really, I do not at all a single bit understand this. We lead completely different lives. We live in 2 farly parted regions. I doubt I made an imprint on his life. It’s always the other way around, no matter how much I wish for it to be otherwise. I haven’t seen or heard from him till today in about 3 months. I’m not sure why it hurts still, but that’s aside from the point.
Bottom line. I fell for a guy who clearly played me while he could. Then found out 6 months later he was not only in a 3 year relationship, but recently engaged. He’s far from my life and lifestyle. I don’t understand why I was to crumple upon this fate.
